August 2011
198 posts
July 2011
404 posts
“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts while the stupid ones are full of confidence.”
—Charles Bukowski
“If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next… Don’t. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness. Don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present – each moment as it comes – because you’ll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart, where your hope lives. You’ll find your way again.”
—Julia Brown, Everwood
I have changed so much these past few months. Things have changed so much these past few months. The solitude and space from all the people I’ve been so close to the last nine months has been needed. Different social, mental and situational stimulation has been fundamental in helping me think about things in different ways and realize the important things. I’ve needed to get out of my comfort zone for some time to just take a leap away from everything I’ve known. Watching all my friends go back to other lives while leaving me to be completely alone to clear my head. In the process I’ve met and reconnected with amazing new people. Better people. Ones that are excessively (I use that term in the most happy and positive way) happy, upbeat, positive and HONEST. They have sparked something new in me that I am forever grateful for. I feel like a part of my demeanor has completely changed. This has been one of the most healing and eye opening summers I’ve had and will ever have and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I looked under a bunch of new leaves and happily turned many of them over.
I’ve let go of things that have weighed so heavy on me. I’ve let go of things that I didn’t realize were weighing on my so heavily, like a thousand pounds of rocks on my chest. Feeling their weight lift off has been immeasurably relieving. So much so that I don’t even feel feathers. Some clarity has come with just the right amount of time alone to figure out a little bit more about myself. Time to read, write, journal, create, photograph, think, run, dance, brood, cook, and feel life.
How lucky I am to have someone who cares about me despite all my flaws and accepts and supports the changes I make and want to make. Someone who inspires me to be a better person everyday. Someone who I can fight with but will never scream at me or leave before we’ve solved an issue. Someone who rarely complains about anything - like this scorching heat he works in for 10 hours a day and then comes home to a house with no a/c. Someone who never speaks a bad word about anyone. Someone teaching me that life is so much simpler than we make it out to be and saying exactly what’s on your mind isn’t so hard. Someone incredibly intelligent that makes me think, debate and make decisions. Someone with the most positive attitude I have ever encountered. Someone who never ceases to amaze me in some way.
Grace
-noun
1. elegance of beauty of form, manner, motion, or action.
2. a pleasing or attractive equality or endowment.
3. favor or good will.
“You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.”
—Nathan Scott
Five favorite things 7/29/11
- Seeing very old friends
- Finishing a good book
- Breakfast for dinner
- Leaving work early
- Clearing out places and parties haha
L’esprit de l’esclaier:
That feeling you get when you leave a conversation and think of all the things you should have said.
There is no word in the English language for this.
“There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”
—
Anaïs Nin
This, everyday.
“You know I’m old in some ways- in others- well, I’m just a little girl. I like sunshine and pretty things and cheerfulness- and I dread responsibility. I don’t want to think about pots and kitchens and brooms. I want to worry whether my legs will get slick and brown when I swim in the summer.”
—F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise
“I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.”
—Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
Five favorite things 7/29/11
- The fact that I’m awesome at BP
- Making new friends - despite the fact that it doesn’t come easy for me
- Hearing about awesome experiences studying abroad
- Real people - pure honesty is quickly becoming one of my favorite qualities
- Good music at parties
“I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us.”
—Khalil Gibran
