“If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next… Don’t. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness. Don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present – each moment as it comes – because you’ll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart, where your hope lives. You’ll find your way again.”—Julia Brown, Everwood
I have changed so much these past few months. Things have changed so much these past few months. The solitude and space from all the people I’ve been so close to the last nine months has been needed. Different social, mental and situational stimulation has been fundamental in helping me think about things in different ways and realize the important things. I’ve needed to get out of my comfort zone for some time to just take a leap away from everything I’ve known. Watching all my friends go back to other lives while leaving me to be completely alone to clear my head. In the process I’ve met and reconnected with amazing new people. Better people. Ones that are excessively (I use that term in the most happy and positive way) happy, upbeat, positive and HONEST. They have sparked something new in me that I am forever grateful for. I feel like a part of my demeanor has completely changed. This has been one of the most healing and eye opening summers I’ve had and will ever have and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I looked under a bunch of new leaves and happily turned many of them over.
I’ve let go of things that have weighed so heavy on me. I’ve let go of things that I didn’t realize were weighing on my so heavily, like a thousand pounds of rocks on my chest. Feeling their weight lift off has been immeasurably relieving. So much so that I don’t even feel feathers. Some clarity has come with just the right amount of time alone to figure out a little bit more about myself. Time to read, write, journal, create, photograph, think, run, dance, brood, cook, and feel life.
How lucky I am to have someone who cares about me despite all my flaws and accepts and supports the changes I make and want to make. Someone who inspires me to be a better person everyday. Someone who I can fight with but will never scream at me or leave before we’ve solved an issue. Someone who rarely complains about anything - like this scorching heat he works in for 10 hours a day and then comes home to a house with no a/c. Someone who never speaks a bad word about anyone. Someone teaching me that life is so much simpler than we make it out to be and saying exactly what’s on your mind isn’t so hard. Someone incredibly intelligent that makes me think, debate and make decisions. Someone with the most positive attitude I have ever encountered. Someone who never ceases to amaze me in some way.
“You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.”—Nathan Scott
“There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”—
“You know I’m old in some ways- in others- well, I’m just a little girl. I like sunshine and pretty things and cheerfulness- and I dread responsibility. I don’t want to think about pots and kitchens and brooms. I want to worry whether my legs will get slick and brown when I swim in the summer.”—F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise
“I believe that words uttered in passion contain a greater living truth than do those words which express thoughts rationally conceived. It is blood that moves the body. Words are not meant to stir the air only: they are capable of moving greater things.”—Natsume Sōseki