I have changed so much these past few months. Things have changed so much these past few months. The solitude and space from all the people I’ve been so close to the last nine months has been needed. Different social, mental and situational stimulation has been fundamental in helping me think about things in different ways and realize the important things. I’ve needed to get out of my comfort zone for some time to just take a leap away from everything I’ve known. Watching all my friends go back to other lives while leaving me to be completely alone to clear my head. In the process I’ve met and reconnected with amazing new people. Better people. Ones that are excessively (I use that term in the most happy and positive way) happy, upbeat, positive and HONEST. They have sparked something new in me that I am forever grateful for. I feel like a part of my demeanor has completely changed. This has been one of the most healing and eye opening summers I’ve had and will ever have and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I looked under a bunch of new leaves and happily turned many of them over.
I’ve let go of things that have weighed so heavy on me. I’ve let go of things that I didn’t realize were weighing on my so heavily, like a thousand pounds of rocks on my chest. Feeling their weight lift off has been immeasurably relieving. So much so that I don’t even feel feathers. Some clarity has come with just the right amount of time alone to figure out a little bit more about myself. Time to read, write, journal, create, photograph, think, run, dance, brood, cook, and feel life.
How lucky I am to have someone who cares about me despite all my flaws and accepts and supports the changes I make and want to make. Someone who inspires me to be a better person everyday. Someone who I can fight with but will never scream at me or leave before we’ve solved an issue. Someone who rarely complains about anything - like this scorching heat he works in for 10 hours a day and then comes home to a house with no a/c. Someone who never speaks a bad word about anyone. Someone teaching me that life is so much simpler than we make it out to be and saying exactly what’s on your mind isn’t so hard. Someone incredibly intelligent that makes me think, debate and make decisions. Someone with the most positive attitude I have ever encountered. Someone who never ceases to amaze me in some way.
1. elegance of beauty of form, manner, motion, or action.
2. a pleasing or attractive equality or endowment.
3. favor or good will.
Five favorite things 7/29/11
- Seeing very old friends
- Finishing a good book
- Breakfast for dinner
- Leaving work early
- Clearing out places and parties haha
L’esprit de l’esclaier:
That feeling you get when you leave a conversation and think of all the things you should have said.
There is no word in the English language for this.
Five favorite things 7/29/11
- The fact that I’m awesome at BP
- Making new friends - despite the fact that it doesn’t come easy for me
- Hearing about awesome experiences studying abroad
- Real people - pure honesty is quickly becoming one of my favorite qualities
- Good music at parties